Hardest decision ever..

Having to solve one problem may not solve everything exactly. What I'm facing now is, I already did whatever I'm supposed to do, I thought everything would come to an ease and I could do things I want to do without feeling guilty.. but oh boy, I wasn't aware of the consequences might come. I was on top of the world and now I'm at the lowest point of the seabed. Hardest decision ever. At this point of time, I am indeed in really need of His help. Ya Allah, please whisper me the right path. I know I should do Istikharah.. Between my decision, and my dad's decision. Not to say I don't feel sorry at all but trust me, I've cried a lot enough to grieve my failure. Its time for me to move on. And all I need from you is your support. I know money isn't everything for you. And I've come to that stage where I finally see what you really want for me, the BEST. doing things for money pleasure can be so self destructive. I need to have vision and mission. A closer target that relates me and family. not just me and work..